..: Stress :..

Man, I have been so stressed out lately.... I don't even know where to begin.

20 days ago, I started to quit smoking.
During the first week, my old housemate (who doesn't like me or is even thinks of me as a friend) said some really nasty stuff about me online. The only reason for her to say such nasty words to me, was because I deleted her off facebook.

housemate status on facebook; "Thank you for unfriending me you uneducated, dole bluding, sac of bacon fat, Im glad I dont have to look at your face when I come onto facebook on the rare occasion. Enjoy the rest of your life before your arteries close over".

...............Just because I deleted her, and my boyfriend did too.

We aren't friends, and generally that's what happens when you aren't friends with somebody. One thing 99% of the world does, is delete people they aren't friends with.

I thought deleting her would make it easier for both of us, I thought she would celebrate, have a glass of wine and get on with her life as us never being friends.
But apparently not.

My boyfriend was absolutely disgusted with what his "so called old friend" said about me, and the fact after living with her, he never liked her after that, he certainly doesn't like her anymore and never will.
He was sick to his stomach reading what she wrote.

She has really made us feel shit the last few weeks.

I was so enraged with her, I have never been so furious in my life.
SO furious, I wanted to hit her. I wanted to drive to her house and beat the living shit out of this woman.
"Woman"....Ha!
She is 30 years old after all, and acting like a 14 year old in high school.

I mean, come on...I am 23 and I would never have said anything like that to anyone, especialy not in a public forum such as facebook.

Ahhh well, I am trying to move on at least.
I have a few self help books, Miranda Kerr has a book called 'Treasure Yourself', I read the entire book in 2 days, it is so positive and fabulous.

I'm just really looking forward to holidays soon...even if it is for 5 days, it's better than nothing at all and being stuck around all of this negativity.

Then after all of that bullshit, my partners brother sent a stupid drunken message to one of my bestfriends boyfriends, saying I killed one of their pet mice.

Long story short, I was looking after 10 baby mice for a friend for 24 hours.... That then extended into a 48 hour ordeal and having to feed them every 2 hours with a paintbrush & cat milk.

My boyfriend and I both did that....Every.2.Hours!

Then of course the BFF's boyfriend actually assumed I did kill her pet mouse!!! WTF!

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhh!

I have loved animals as long as I can remember, I have wanted to be a vet since I was a child.
There is no way in HELL I would ever commit such a horrible act of cruelty against an innocent animal, be it large or small.

The tiny tiny tiny mouse died of natural causes and not eating. It was honestly the smallest mouse of the litter.

Anyway, I will never seek closure from my ex house mate, because she will never applogize and I will never forgive and never forget such incidents.

Drama causing bitches will get what's coming... Karma is a mysterious friend who always lerks in the shadows when you need them the most.

PEACE OUT MOTHERFUCKERS, IT'S VAY-CAY TIME!

..: Piercings :..

So, on Tuesday, Ibdecided to go get 2 lip piercing's done.

..: Life Goes On :..

So, over the last week, it has been really good!

Jesse and I have been better than ever, and I think it's because we have the new baby kitten, she has brightened up our darkest days :)

Speaking of little lucifer, she had her first bath today :)

We've had a lot of people come to visit us over the last week too, gooooooodness me, we had 5 people over in 5 days. That is a lot for us haha.

Good times though, it was really fun :)

..: Life Lately :..

So, lately.... I have been doing alright.

I got paid on Wednesday, bought some groceries, picked up my new kitten 'Lucifer', and then on Thursday I had a friend come stay over night.
Friday we went to the beach, and we got some sushi and noodles :)
Then on Saturday, we had another friend come over for a few hours to visit, which was nice.

Then today, my partner has his friend over playing video games and having some beers.

It's been nice to have a little bit of cash and that we could go out and have something nice to eat.

I can't wait until next fortnight though, to get paid again! haha

I need to take lucifer to the vets to get a vaccination then too, so hopefully that won't cost me more than $100.

She is a very cute little kitty :) I love her.

..: Lucifer :..

Tomorrow I am picking up my new kitten, lucifurr :) :D

She is only $20!!! :D

But, I do miss my kitty, 'gothic', I have had her for 7 years and she has been my best friend and the best cat I could ever ask for....

I really hope she never forgets me... I love her so much and I can't wait to see her at xmas time :)

I miss her cuddles, her fluffy fur, her beautiful big eyes, her friendly and cuddly personality, and snuggling her in bed.... :( I really miss her.

..: Excitement :..

It's one day until payday!!! Looking forward to getting paid and finally having a bit of cash left over for myself!

I decided I am going to start putting away $40 in an envelope each fortnight, hopefully one day that will be a big wad of cash!
And even after saving that $40 this week, I will still have $75 for myself, thats without having to pay for any more bills....

If I want to buy myself something nice with that $75, I can!!!

But, I probably won't.... I'll keep it for emergency cash.

Apart from that, Jesse has his job interview today at 3pm! YAY!
I really hope he gets the job, that will make our financial situations so much easier and stress free.


The only issue is, he can't seem to find his birth certificate, and they really need that before they process and go ahead with his application.
We have previously just moved house 2 weeks ago, so he may just need to tell them that....
But, he did work for this company for 7 years, so maybe they will already have it on file???

OH! And I woke up with my hair perfect today, don't have to style it one bit!

Oh well, nevertheless, today is a good day :)

..: Ahead :..

So, I woke up this morning thinking it was Saturday.
Then to my disappointment, it's actually SUNDAY!!!!!

How did I lose an entire day? haha

Anyway, it's good to know it's Sunday, that means we are a day ahead/closer to Jesse's job interview, and also one day closer to pay day!!!

Last night wasn't very fun....
I sat down with Jesse and let my heart flow....

I have been bottling up my issues over the past week, and it was time I spoke my mind.

I told him that these financial issues are starting to put a strain on our relationship, and that I can't pay for his bills anymore.
It's not fair that I have to pay for him as well as myself, and I am on a low income as it is... I'm left with no money every fortnightly payment and I can't go out shopping or get a pedicure, or buy myself anything nice lately.

I think it's been about 2 months now that I have said " I'm going to get a pedicure next week ", and alas, a bill arrives, and I can't treat myself to something I really need for my gross cracked heels!

I also explained that I feel as if we aren't really in a relationship anymore...
We just sit on the couch watching tv, just as if we are two mates hanging out.

We hardly have any romance anymore.

Well, ha... His "romance" wasn't exactly romantic, maybe a hug or a kiss once a day.

Anyway, I told him something really needs to change, or else I am considering leaving.
I can't be in a relationship where it's all on me.
A relationship needs to be 50/50, not "You can just pay for everything and I'll sit here and play PS3 while you clean the house by yourself while you asked me 10 times anyway, also don't forget to cook me food, and here is my affection for you; thanks"

It's really pushing me to the edge lately, and I don't want to leave him...I really don't.
But, maybe that's because I live so far away from my hometown that I don't really have a choice?
Maybe I just have to stick it out for the next 12 months of my life being miserable...

Anyway, he better get a job and change himself quick smart, because I'm clearly not happy in this relationship at the moment.