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So, I woke up this morning thinking it was Saturday.
Then to my disappointment, it's actually SUNDAY!!!!!

How did I lose an entire day? haha

Anyway, it's good to know it's Sunday, that means we are a day ahead/closer to Jesse's job interview, and also one day closer to pay day!!!

Last night wasn't very fun....
I sat down with Jesse and let my heart flow....

I have been bottling up my issues over the past week, and it was time I spoke my mind.

I told him that these financial issues are starting to put a strain on our relationship, and that I can't pay for his bills anymore.
It's not fair that I have to pay for him as well as myself, and I am on a low income as it is... I'm left with no money every fortnightly payment and I can't go out shopping or get a pedicure, or buy myself anything nice lately.

I think it's been about 2 months now that I have said " I'm going to get a pedicure next week ", and alas, a bill arrives, and I can't treat myself to something I really need for my gross cracked heels!

I also explained that I feel as if we aren't really in a relationship anymore...
We just sit on the couch watching tv, just as if we are two mates hanging out.

We hardly have any romance anymore.

Well, ha... His "romance" wasn't exactly romantic, maybe a hug or a kiss once a day.

Anyway, I told him something really needs to change, or else I am considering leaving.
I can't be in a relationship where it's all on me.
A relationship needs to be 50/50, not "You can just pay for everything and I'll sit here and play PS3 while you clean the house by yourself while you asked me 10 times anyway, also don't forget to cook me food, and here is my affection for you; thanks"

It's really pushing me to the edge lately, and I don't want to leave him...I really don't.
But, maybe that's because I live so far away from my hometown that I don't really have a choice?
Maybe I just have to stick it out for the next 12 months of my life being miserable...

Anyway, he better get a job and change himself quick smart, because I'm clearly not happy in this relationship at the moment.